i lost my Watsons plastic bag containing my two new ZA make-up products yesterday afternoon at JP. and i am really really sad about that. i feel like killing myself, because its not easy to get mum to buy me new make-ups and its like once in a blue moon mum'll allow me to. i'm not a rich fuck-ass bitch like some of you. goodness. this is fucking frustrating.

i am tired. tired of crying a whole night long.

on a brighter note, i got to tag along with the boys last night to their jamming session. gotta watch Danni on the drums and i'm happy enough. as usual, mum spoilt the day. nontheless, thanks Zaki and Danni for trying to cheer me up. (:

back to what i'm supposed to be feeling - PISSED & SAD.

its been a whole jouney for you and me. people say that parents know best. in my case, i think my mum knows nothing. that is why i'm determined to prove her wrong. as long as mum's still strong-headed about us, it'll never be any better than how it is right now. i still hope and wish we could be alot more happier. i'm sure we will. i really love you. and that's that baby.

your gig's gonna be awesome. altho i have to miss it, i wish you and the boys best of luck this Saturday and hope you guys will have fun and that your hard work, money spent on all those jamming sessions and sacrificing soccer for music are all worth it.

Happy Gig-ing Scarlet Rose!

Danni, Labin, Qhas & Zaki! hhooww ccuutteee!

& dear chalet, please come quick!!

p/s: i'm happy i was with you last night.