i'm not celebrating my monthisarry with dearest as much as i'd love to, because its fasting month and we can't do much either. and i doubt we'll be celebrating our next's too because its gonna be SHR by then. its okay. but i'll make sure our first year anni will be a blast. well, it must be! (:

we took some videos during break to kill boredom. how fun! but it was tiring. i wanted to upload them here, but its taking too long. so maybe next time, or just at my eljay lar kays.

i wanna go out this friday, buy the tee if i got the money then chill at some cool places to study (for real this time), then break fast outside and then chill and study again and go home at night. no, i promise it'd neither be at esplanade nor fullerton this time because that place is so distracting to me. i'll think of some other places where i can go (definitely not geylang), even if i'm alone. i just wanna go out. can i?

i chatted and pour my heart out to Wani and Zaki just now. Wani made me cry a little when she told me how much she care for me. awwwww. she's the sweetest. thanks baby! (: both agree i'm too dependent. well that's fact. i shall not rant about it. & Wani told me that NOBODY can ever forget their first crush. BUT i think she's wrong about that. i hate mine to the core, you know who. nontheless, i feel grateful for i have them, and not forgetting Mira too. i love you people gila babi.

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dear boyfriend, just so you know:

i wouldnt want to dumb you even if i have 100 facts or reasons to do so.

i wouldnt want to betray you for another hunkie 1000 times better than you.

i wouldnt want to dumb you for not getting all the attention i want.

i wouldnt want to dumb you for the littlest fight we get into.

i wouldnt want to dumb you for you being busy with soccer and for going home late at night.

i wouldnt want to dumb you for not getting to celebrate monthisarries with me.

i wouldnt want to dumb you even if i always see a sad and moody you everytime we meet.

i wouldnt even want to dumb you for any forms of stupid actions or mistakes you make.

because that's how much i love you. i swear, from the deepest bottom most of my heart. i'd still love you, even if anything bad will ever happen in anytime of our lives.

i love you, muhammad danial afiq!