this feeling is worse.
& i didn't even ask for it.
are the things that i'm asking for difficult? or i am really too demanding? or have i become a bad girlfriend? or i just simply can't handle long-dist relationship? i never want it to be this way, NEVER. the last time i remembered feeling shitty like this was when i broke up with Ahmad. now tell me & gimme a fucking good reason why do i have to feel this way again? altho we've been so far apart and haven't been meeting each otha lately and admit that things haven't been the same anymore, i never ever ever thought of taking a break from you because i never stop loving you. i never complain about us not getting to meet. instead, i stood quietly here and have always been trying to cheer myself up. i understand the whole situation that's going on and i don't wanna rant abt this too much, but unfortunately, i can't stand this feeling. this is bad. real bad. taking a 'break' out of a relationship is like the last thing on my mind. its so close to the definition of breaking up, to me. it hurts so much waking up and getting reminded of the msg that you sent me last night.
you leave me on my own right now, in a confusion, not knowing who to turn to, what to do, & not even knowing exactly why & what the hell is going on! this may not be a big deal to you, but it is to me. i can't stand this. i have a boyf but doesn't seem like having one. you're always not there when i need you the most. i think its not my fault, is it? i don't wanna get hurt anymore.
all i'm asking for, is someone to be nice to me, please.
i'd rather watch them play soccer today.
if you can't make me happy, then i'll do it myself.
i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.
DONE.
MY MULTIPLY 