now you have your own problems, and when you talked abt it to me, you're actually reminding me of some pasts. i dont know why, but i think you're lucky. as much as she's troubling you now, at least she(the one you once loved) is still physically and emotionally close to you. isn't that more than enough to ask for after a break-up? i wish mine's just like that, besides Saifullah ah, whom i absolutely don't need now. yeah.

i have someone, whom i see him as my future husband (haha mcm berangan gituk). and i've never told him i like him and i doubt he likes me too ah. he comes and go. i'm just like a little sister, or maybe just a friend to him. but to me, he's more than that. he's someone who i look up to, whom i'm proud of and whom i wish i am with now. i framed our picture in my room, a small one. but i never looked at it. because i know, its only something that'll never happen. we've been friends for almost fucking 5 years and have never knew how we felt for each other. so be it. i miss him. but yeah, he's fucking 5 years older. and i can only dream of marrying him. uhh okay lar tuu! but nahh, I KNOW its just a dream, thats why i am here now, moving on with life so happily. i love Amy! i love Amy!!

okay skip skip.

work was fun today. there were Noor, Wani, Wati, Elijah, YC. i went to the bank to cash in some money, ate Nasi Lemak for breakfast & saw the cute malay regular customer who'll always make me go gaga everytime he's there. haha seeyak! and initially i was supposed to follow Noor to Harbour Front to meet her boyf, but she left me. naabbbeeeyyy! so yeah, i went home straight after work. i saw Afad on his bike at the traffic light just now. he's another cibai uh. come & go. and its been soooo fucking long that we've never met and lepak and laugh together. urgh!

AND my watch's damaged. i need the new Adidas watch. please please please!!

lastly, tomorrow's the posting results. i doubt i can get my ass into poly. so yeah. i'm mentally ready to go to ITE. and i fucking can't wait to start school! (:

so yeah, lets just wait till tomorrow comes! and in the meantime, i hope baby'll get to solve his problems soon and i hope he's doing okay. i miss him!